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My time in Nepal is rapidly coming to a close… sort of. Lots of uncertainty still left in the game with a fuel blockade on the India-Nepal border, causing a major shortage of petrol for vehicles and the potential for me to be flown to Kathmandu a bit earlier than originally planned. Eagerly waiting to hear the verdict, and so is my host-family with Dashain (like Christmas for Hinduism) coming up.

In the meantime, I’ve applied to my first job for my return! I’m looking into a few other postings and hopefully will be unemployed for only a short amount of time when I get back (in December—I bought my plane ticket home too!).

Onto the meaty stuff, my reflection:

As much as an over-analyzer and over-thinker I am--a quality I became aware of a few years back—I am finally taking steps to counteract it, or handle it in a more feel-good way. I’ve become largely aware of the fearlessness and confidence Nepalese people carry (most of them). Situations I often panic and stress over they mosey on through. When I think, plan plan plan! They think, I got this. And I’m starting to find a better, more comfortable balance between cautiousness and recklessness. Regardless of where it’s rooted from, I’ve been a “better safe than sorry” kinda gal for a long time, and I’m beginning to see the value and potential gains of taking more risks. It’s still scary, but I’m reassured by the rollercoaster this journey has been and I believe the truth in the saying, “We win some and we lose some”. Whatever happens, it doesn’t end there and we got to keep on rolling the dice and playing the game.

Today in and of itself was a roller coaster. Had some good moments (ate a Fiber One bar) and some bad moments (got nearly completely trampled on the bus) then another good moment (ate a boiled egg) then some more bad moments (tried to apply to a job then the internet cut out and lost my whole application then got stuck in the rain waiting for the bus) then some more good moments (made it home and finished my job application!) and now my butt is on my bed in shorts ready for sleep (a good moment) while the ants infiltrate my room (…yeah).

Anywho… the journey continues. On to the next one.

Love,

Bora