“This one goes out to all my haters.
Thanks for making me feel like the greatest- btch I'm about to blow
up.”
Blow up- J.Cole
One thing I can never cease to be
thankful for is the incredible view of the stars and the moon in the
sky at night. It's a view unparalleled when growing up in
light-polluted cities your whole life. Interestingly now I'm
nostalgic for the rooftop of the first home I settled in after my
move to Nepal- the beautiful village known as Chhaap.
I'm continuing my life along the tracks
of the Peace Corps rollercoaster. I'm not one to butter stories up,
so I must admit that some days/nights living here have been
absolutely terrible- sometimes miserable physically (diarrhea,
dehydration, mosquitoes, the heat, the cold, the physical labor),
sometimes mentally (language, trainings, understanding policy,
learning new skills), sometimes emotionally (loneliness, boredom,
frustration, fear), but usually caused by the exhaustion of all of
the above. Yet as with most lives lived on Earth, there is a
balance, and I can't fail to recognize that there has been many
days/nights here in Nepal that have presented to me opportunities for
which I am terribly undeserving and very grateful. Life here as a
foreigner, as a woman, as a volunteer, as a 23 year old, as an
Asian-American, has presented challenges I never could have prepared
for in the States, but I dare to never forget that this experience is
an adventure I pursue willingly and joyfully, regardless of what
happens.
In this life we must face the unique
challenges set before us and find the means to make our way through
life in the manner we each uniquely believe in.
I miss home, the Bay Area and the San
Diego area, constantly, and most likely will be yearning for my
hometown until the end of this tour, but I am looking up at the
present and doing my best to embrace every minute of it while seeing
the future on the horizon.
I'm doing my best. I'm learning
everyday, breaking down to be put back together, and discovering new
potential within myself and within others.
These mosquitoes bites are seriously
fire though and I can't stop itching. FML.
MUAH!
-Bora
