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Monday, May 5, 2014

5/5/14 Happy Cinco de Mayo

“This one goes out to all my haters. Thanks for making me feel like the greatest- btch I'm about to blow up.”
Blow up- J.Cole

One thing I can never cease to be thankful for is the incredible view of the stars and the moon in the sky at night. It's a view unparalleled when growing up in light-polluted cities your whole life. Interestingly now I'm nostalgic for the rooftop of the first home I settled in after my move to Nepal- the beautiful village known as Chhaap.

I'm continuing my life along the tracks of the Peace Corps rollercoaster. I'm not one to butter stories up, so I must admit that some days/nights living here have been absolutely terrible- sometimes miserable physically (diarrhea, dehydration, mosquitoes, the heat, the cold, the physical labor), sometimes mentally (language, trainings, understanding policy, learning new skills), sometimes emotionally (loneliness, boredom, frustration, fear), but usually caused by the exhaustion of all of the above. Yet as with most lives lived on Earth, there is a balance, and I can't fail to recognize that there has been many days/nights here in Nepal that have presented to me opportunities for which I am terribly undeserving and very grateful. Life here as a foreigner, as a woman, as a volunteer, as a 23 year old, as an Asian-American, has presented challenges I never could have prepared for in the States, but I dare to never forget that this experience is an adventure I pursue willingly and joyfully, regardless of what happens.

In this life we must face the unique challenges set before us and find the means to make our way through life in the manner we each uniquely believe in.

I miss home, the Bay Area and the San Diego area, constantly, and most likely will be yearning for my hometown until the end of this tour, but I am looking up at the present and doing my best to embrace every minute of it while seeing the future on the horizon.

I'm doing my best. I'm learning everyday, breaking down to be put back together, and discovering new potential within myself and within others.

These mosquitoes bites are seriously fire though and I can't stop itching. FML.

MUAH!

-Bora

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Easter

Happy Belated Easter everyone!

I remember celebrating Easter in a variety of ways back in the States: going to SCUM (Santa Clara [Korean] United Methodist) and getting fed a huge, delicious Korean BBQ lunch after service, or going to our cousin's house when we were kids and participating in an extreme egg hunt, or.... actually those are the only two memories I can conjure up at the moment.

I've always been, or at least continue to aspire to be, an activist behind the idea, “never be ashamed of who you are”. Because Hindu is the dominate religion in Nepal, I find joy here in telling others about my Christian background and faith because it empowers me to speak up for myself and my God. Since there is a small majority out here who are Christian, I wonder if they feel marginalized at times in their daily lives because the Hindu religion is so integrated into the culture. I assume so.

Recognizing Easter while I'm living and serving in Nepal was important to me this year because I'm reminded in several different ways the cost of Peace Corps service to me and my life up until now, and how much of what complimented my identity in the USA was left behind in the USA. It's the simple things, such as knowing every Sunday I had the freedom to go to church for a few hours and remind myself of my spirituality if during the week I got a little too caught up with school, work, friends, or other parts of my life. It was a freedom I didn't recognize until it was gone.

And so, how did I celebrate this year? Well, I was nursing an intense diarrhea episode (my life was almost lost to this mess, or so it felt like it, no joke) and thought it best to stay at home (didn't want to get caught open defecating on the road, ya feel) and try my first attempt at baking a cake using a pressure cooker. It took two tries, the first one being the ULTIMATE fail where instead of baking a pretty yellow cake I created a black rock. However on the second try I remembered to check early and check often and taaa-daaaa, gold! I was so excited since I'm no baker- the extent of my baking career back at home was buying those funfetti cake mixes. I had my Nepali host family pose with the cake and I explained to them a little bit about why we celebrate Easter. Then we ate it, after the ants of course.

Anywho, here's my Easter post. Hope everyone in California and elsewhere had a smashing one.

Lava,

Bora


PS- I'll explain the new diarrhea, ant, spider, and mosquito situation in the next post. xoxoyoloxoxo

Thursday, April 10, 2014

First Fund-raiser

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Copy and paste the url above and check out the latest fundraiser.  Any small donation would be of great help and would be extremely appreciated!

Monday, April 7, 2014

Legs on Fire


April 8, 2014

If Nepal has malaria, I think I'm a good candidate for a test sample. Mosquito season has informally arrived and my legs are on fiiiiire! Mero kuttaharu mastai chilaiiyo. These little suckers are everywhere and so tiny they've made my legs all red and lumpy like the chicken pox.

On a brighter note, good morning everyone! Today is a beautiful day and the weather has been so very warm here in Dang. Because we are so far south and flat we are a lot warmer than the middle hills and mountain regions of the country. It's hot during the day but it's also that warm summer night feel when the sun goes down; truly one of the best experiences in the worrrrld.

Concerning care packages, I no longer need a guitar capo! A lovely friend here took the liberty to buy me one just yesterday. I'm extremery excited to get this guitar thing going. I'm getting my first song down and it sounds like poopy holaa but it's music: it's reviving and I love it. However, if any of you amazzzzing friends and family of mine are thinking about sending a care package, I would diiie of happiness (it's true). Because of all the moving and confusion with my postal address I haven't been able to receive packages since October (2013) and all the luxury Americano food from that package has been looong gone. I can send you cute cheap Nepali stuff and love in return!! :)

Things that have hit my face this week:
1. Tobacco/betal leaf(?) spit out from the window on a bus. It was one of those, “There he goes to spit... and there's the spit on my face,” moments.
2. Cow poop a.k.a. da gobar. My bhaauju, or sister-in-law, and I were making compost at my house yesterday and I had gathered a bunch of fresh green leaves with my mom to add to the pile. I saw my bhaauju coming in with the watery mixture of gobar and I asked (in Nepali), “Don't we have to cut up the green leaves into small pieces?”. She said yes and threw the gobar mix all over the green leaves. Then we started breaking them into smaller pieces. Basically, there was absolutely no science behind the method of adding cow poop before chopping the leaves because then we had to chop cow poopy leaves, which splashed cow poop everywhere, such as in my mouth, in my eyes, the facial works.
3. Vomit..... just kidding not yet but you know I'll let ya'll know when that happens! ;)

Man this post is RANDOM, which I know I'm infamous for so I'll just keeping being random.
Anywho, now on a more sentimental note, I met a beautiful Nepali girl a while ago when I first moved into Manpur, Dang (my permanent site), and I have been keeping in touch with her ever since. She lives in our district capital, which is a popping, urban bazaar area, to study at school there. Every time I make my way out to the district capital I make sure to give her a call and stop by and see her. Sometimes we go for loooong walks to see different nearby Hindu or Buddhist temples (this little girl can walk for days without water or complaint), and sometimes we go to her room and hang out and chat. She has a beautiful heart and is one of those people you can't help but be thankful to have met. The other day she took myself and a friend of mine on one of her long walks to a nearby (but far away) temple. It was during this walk that she said something very sweet that I had no idea about. When she was a young girl both her parents had passed away from HIV/AIDS (I'll try to develop on her story in another post). She told my friend about this fact of life and said on those days when she is down and really missing her parents, she calls me and talks to me over the phone and she feels better. When I overheard her say this, that slow, small, trickling tear started to fall down my face (I was in front of the group so I don't think anyone saw). I had no idea that she thought of me in that way, but it's been an amazing relationship we've been able to build. She's my little Nepali sister here, bringing meaning to my service in Nepal and in my life, while I'm her older American sister. I'm hopeful that I can be just as meaningful to her as she is to me.

Now, on to soccer! As some of you may know, I've been trying to build a local neighborhood soccer team in my village to give the boys a sense of leadership, responsibility, and belonging to a team. This dream to start this team doesn't end with the team itself, but will hopefully lead to a local soccer league where the boys can play other teams from nearby villages if those villages can develop their own teams as well. I wanted to find ways to get the boys a new soccer ball, goalie gloves, field lines, even uniforms if we could fund raise enough money or get enough support. I've already talked to the boys about having regular practices, but a new problem I've been facing is how do I ensure the boys will be responsible with the equipment if it is acquired? I want to know that the boys are benefiting from this soccer team farther beyond just the physical equipment. I want to know that they are building leadership skills, teamwork attitudes, and that this team is helping to foster a thoughtful group of youth who may one day lead this country (big hopes, but it can happen).
Thoughts? Questions? Suggestions?? I'll take 'em all.

Lastly, I finished reading The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell and I began noticing “tipping points” in my life and in my self. The idea of the book is that there are natural “tipping points” caused by certain people, certain environments, and certain ideas that can tip an event over into becoming an epidemic. After a lot of self-reflection, as Peace Corps service is often a time and place that provides many self-reflection opportunities, I've noticed circumstances and situations that may have the power to tip me over into taking action, however without that last little incident or push, I may have been comfortable staying in the safety of my comfort zone. This was a lot of abstract talk, but I can't think of a concrete example at the moment. I'll let you know when I do. Just a thought looming around in the hazy brain of Bora that wanted to get posted online for everyone to see.

Okie I'm done for this morning. Off to the garden to plant a few dying and a few lively cucumbers. Love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!

pheri bhetaula mi amors (trilingual wassup)

-Bora

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Just another post

I'm keeping busy with the reporting part of the job, finishing up my first draft of my VSA, or Village Situational Analysis, and my VRF, Volunteer Report Form (?).

Today in our kitchen as we ate our daal bhaat we were faced with new challenges that come along with the new warmer season, and the fact that our goat gave birth.  The battle began as we smacked around continuously to keep the new influx of flies (x34958769230840853e) off our food. Why are the flies not afraid of humans?  Then the two new baby goaties kept coming into the kitchen, also trying to get at our food. Cute goats, but they eat everything you don't want them to be eating.  It's always fun to compare Nepali home to California home and think, "why are there goats in the kitchen?". Ah the joyful varieties of life.

Overall, today was a very uplifting day.  I woke up and decided to go for a run through my village, as I occasionally do when I can bare the stares.  I'm thankful for that decision because as I began to cut across the khet (crop fields) I was stopped by a very kind didi (older sister, but she was really a mom) who was interested in me (being "non-Nepali") because her children have talked about me many times before.  Lucky for me, she was a community mobilizer for an NGO that works specifically in my district (kind of like a miniature state).  She told me briefly about some of the work she does and offered to show me around her office some time and have me be a part of the work she does.

........ sweet!

<3

Monday, March 17, 2014

I love my hyphy village.

Happy Holi!
3/17/14

Or to all back at home, Happy St. Patrick's Day. Holi isn't the Nepali equivalent of St. Patrick's Day, but the two holidays happened to land on the same calendar day this year. From what I've heard, Holi is a Hindu holiday celebrated after the gods Vishnu and Radha. Vishnu, a blue skinned god, threw colors at Radha so that they would be of the same color and they fell in love. Thus, Holi is celebrated by destroying other people with tikaa powder of all different colors. There is also a mixture of water balloons, water squirters, eggs, alcohol and beer, and a good ol' angry fight when someone gets too much tikaa to the dome to give the holiday its full atmosphere.

I was quietly working on my nursery bed (I'm working on my green thumb) in the back of my house when I was hazed by a mob of villagers in my gaou (village). I wasn't too eager on participating in the Holi celebrations at first because I wanted to get my nursery bed up and growing. However, after over 100 villagers smacked me around with colorful tikaa powder and cracked 2 eggs on my head, they got me to stop what I was doing and join the festivities. We walked down to the local mandeer (temple) and they yelled, “AMERICAN DANCE!”

I taught them a few good moves, some of the classics like the sprinkler, the disco, the hands and knees move (I don't remember what its called), and some interpretive & improv moves. I'd say the people dug it, but you all will never know since no other American was around to witness.

And now I have tikaa stains all over my face and body because I didn't bathe quick enough. I have a nice solid red mustache too (I hope it never goes away).

With love and tikaa,

Bora

Friday, March 14, 2014

Back at it

Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
3/13/14

It wasn't until I hit my 6 month mark of living in Nepal that I realized, “This is it”. I have a better understanding of what my work here actually consists of, and a much better understanding of the commitment I made back when I decided to join the Peace Corps. As with many things in life, it's been quite an experience and I could say that it differs from the expectations I had, but as truthful as I can be, I don't think I came with any expectations at all.

I suppose one assumption I did arrive here with that I took for granted was that my safety would be assured. Unfortunately, my safety isn't guaranteed as many things are not guaranteed in life. That is one of the risks of joining the Peace Corps, or running a marathon, or riding a bike, or crossing the street: the risk of the adventure. But whose to say it isn't worth the risk? Perhaps people who suffer the consequences, but one will never know until he or she tries. Disclaimer: no I'm not dead; I am perfectly fine.

Although it should have been obvious to me, it wasn't until now that I realize the sacrifices I've made in deciding to move to Nepal. With the majority of my service remaining ahead of me, I now see what I need to let go of in order to continue forward with this journey. And so, forward into the future I go, letting go of bits and pieces of who I once “was” for who I am to “be”.

With that said, I want to tell all my friends and family back home how gravely important you all are to me in creating who I am and who I want to be. Your love and nourishment mean a lot to me, especially in those days when I feel alone (it happens to all of us, no?).

Sooooo, what I'm tryin' to say eeezz..... letters and care packages?!?!
Just kidding, but the care packages would be niiiice. Your support and small friendly reminders have such a great impact on my well being here (sincerely) and I don't want to do this without you all.

Here's my new official address, as told by my host-father. My sister-in-law works at the post office, so God-willing, all should work out!


Christine Bora Lee
c/o Kadaga Bahadur Bhandari
Manpur VDC, Ward no. 1
Dang District, Rapti Anchal Nepal


Desirables:

*love letters (with cool facts I should know about things that have happened while away)
*protein bars (SO IMPORTANT)
dried seaweed (not very important)
dried fruit (like banana chips)
-blueberries, cranberries, and raspberries don't exist here either... think: berries and cream.
*whole wheat, whole grain ANYTHING
*brown rice/purple rice/wild grain rice
emergen-C or vitamin C stuff
*guitar capo, guitar learning guides (I bought a saano guitar heh)

The (*) is something I would reallllly like. Also, my room is sort of overloading with stuff and there is no room to put junk, so please no need to send too much stuff/random eeeish!

God bless America, California, and Nepal while he's at it!

Love and Peace upon thy World from,
Bora


PS- If anyone has travel plans to Asia or anywhere, let me know. Anyone down to visit Nepal is more than welcomed. (Come to me.)